To the new parents,
When our child was first diagnosed with SB our world came to a complete stop in a blink of an eye. Never have I experienced the emotional pain I went through. No one knows exactly how it feels unless you are actually living it. Even though I had my fiancee by my side, I still felt so alone. I was heartbroken, scared, confused, feeling emotions I had never even felt before. Worst part of going through this journey is the unknowns, all the Doctors can do is give you probabilities of what could happen, but they themselves aren't even sure. In the beginning these Doctors would literally break our hearts into pieces when we had appointments, we felt as if we immediately had to gather up the pieces put them back together and continue on. But now its different, its different because we are seeing Doctors that are actually going to be able to help our child not Doctors that just know something is wrong, what it causes, and that's it.
Till this day I still think to myself, " Why my child?" Do I really deserve this? What did I do wrong?" The answer is still unknown but God has helped me cope with this. They say everything happens for a reason, we still haven't found the reason, but I am thankful for everything God has given us. God knows what he is doing from Day 1 and at the moment we still cant see the whole movie just a filmstrip. My Journey is just beginning but having these blogs accessible to me has helped me so much, I'm not alone, and you don't have to be either. Its okay to cry, to be sad but it certainly isn't the end of the world, there are so many more ups that are going to overpower the downs. Going through this journey so far has made me cherish every moment of my pregnancy. Be happy, take care of yourself, enjoy your pregnancy and prepare for the bundle of joy that is to come.
God Bless,
Tracy
