May 3rd

So anxious for this day. We had an appointment real early in the morning for an anatomy scan to determine the gender of the baby with Dr. Peters. We were both so nervous and happy to find out what we were having, the nurse came in and did the sonogram, looked over everything, left the room and informed us that the Dr. will be in shortly to go over everything we were seeing on the screen. Everything seemed normal so far. When Dr. Peters came in he introduced himself and performed the sonogram. I kept staring at him for an answer if it was a boy or girl, but it seemed like there was something else he was looking for. I felt his shift immediately switch up on us and then I knew from the bottom of my heart something was wrong. After a couple of minutes of him examining the baby he let out a big sigh. I immediately knew something was wrong, he hadn't even said anything to us, but my heart was starting to break into a million pieces. He informed us that the baby had Spina Bifida ( myelomeningocele ) the most severe type of spina bifida.  Immediately I broke into tears, I didnt know exactly what it was besides the fact it has something to do with the spine and it wasn't good. I remember my heart filling up with sorrow and seeing Frank's face full of confusion because he just didn't know what it was. He just stared at me and I nodded my head and he bursted into tears as well. I will never forget this day, until this day I remember it as if it was yesterday.